How To Awaken The God Within

You have to be able to experience the greatest pain to be able to experience the greatest pleasure. Your ability to feel goes in both directions with equal measure. That means that your ability to experience deep pain also becomes your ability to experience the purest joy and bliss.

Thus we aim train our mind to become still so that we can sit through any discomfort. To be able to sit through, to be able to transcend our own inner hell in whatever range that might express itself. 

We have to understand that we are much more than these bodies yet everything that we seek is also within this flesh. Everything that we seek from the outside is already within us. We are pure consciousness manifested into form. We are experiencing ourselves as separate entities as these unique personas. 

​So a spiritual awakening in any form is the the literal deconstruction of the ego in one way or another, its the uncovering of the truth, of what you are, of who you are. Many call it the death of the ego but I wouldn't want to call it a death since the ego always resurrects as the perfect phoenix that it is.

Through each layer that the ego sheds it also resurrects as something new as a refined version of the old ego. See we come here as completely unique beings, as unique lights, unique frequencies, unique vibrations. Through the healing process we are refining our true frequency, purifying it.

As if you were a song, a melody that you keep refining through the instrument which is You, so that you'll be able to express a more and more beautiful song. The process in itself is infinite, we tend to seek an end, a completion. But even once you reached a certain stage of completion a new cycle begins. Its endless.

Not to say that it doesn't get easier cause it does. As you deconstruct your ego, you let go of most of the identifying aspects of what you've known yourself to be. You let go of the idea of who you identify yourself to be. To become who you truly are. Not an idea, but an continuous expression, a beingness.

Its releasing the attachment to the idea of who you are, its all about losing oneself. You have to be undone to be recreated anew. So the spiritual path is the undoing of the Self as we know it and this happens in cycles. Expansion and contraction, from the highest to the lowest.

As you open up to more light, you also open up to feel more, to experience more. That means that you will be able to experience more higher vibrational energies as well as denser more lower vibes as well. You cannot have one without the other.

But the harmony is found in the complete surrender to the pain, the complete surrender to God. Understanding and knowing that when we face our inner shadow we are also turning to face the God within us. Because as we acknowledge that we are light, that we are divine consciousness, that all shadows within are only illusions thats when we start to transcend them. Its only through active conviction that we work in the true faith of God. Thus when we are willing to go within to face our shadows we also awaken the God within. 

Much Love, ​Kristina

How To Let Go

One of the greatest skills that you could ever acquire is the ability to be able to let go at will. To be able to release a negative feeling, to be able to release a negative thought form, a negative habit, a negative perspective. Anything really that we feel is weighing us down, everything that is blocking us from our full expression in whatever form that may be.

Letting go is really at the centre of any healing or spiritual evolution. Nothing can be achieved unless you let go and surrender. Its the most important teaching. When we mastered the ability to let go, then we have mastered the experience of impermanence as the only thing constant in life is change. The ability to let go thus become the ability to let go of attachment. The more detached we can become to specific desires and expectations, the more detached we can become to sufferings and pain.

Now how do you do it?

I have a few techniques that I want to share with you. These are the techniques that has worked for me. If you find something that is working better for you then continue using that method but I advice to always be curious and try new things, new methods. You can always go back to old tried methods if the new ones don’t work as well as the old one did. Either way you’ll go back with added knowledge.                                                                           * * *

The steps to release anything is as follows:

1. Awareness 

The first step is of course to become aware of what you’re feeling or just that you’re feeling ’something’, noticing what you’re feeling and where you’re feeling it. Notice what you’re thinking as you’re feeling it. The thought form will always come first, so become aware of the internal dialogue. We cannot suffer unless we choose to and we suffer through our perspective. So the awareness of our own perspective, of our own focus will help us to be able to shift and change towards a more positive and beneficial perspective that makes us feel good.

2. Responsibility

Take responsibility for it being there, whether its a negative thought form, a negative feeling or a physical pain. Take responsibility for the pain, for being in charge of it being there even though you may not want it to be there or consciously have no knowledge of ever having brought it into existence. The fact that its there makes you responsible and the only way to resolve and heal it is to become fully responsible for it.

3. Communicate

Opening up the communication between your conscious self and your unconscious self, your subconscious. Which means being present with yourself at any state of being. That means being present with yourself, when you’re happy, when you’re sad or at any state of being “good” or “bad”.

In reality no feelings are ever ‘good’ or ‘bad’ they’re just messengers conveying messages from your higher self, from our subconscious. We can only know from which part of ourselves that the message is coming from if we listen. But we cannot just listen we have to also feel into the message, that’s true listening. 

As you listen and feel into the emotion, the sensation, the feeling, the pain whatever it may be. Check in and ask if its ready to be released. You always want to ask when you’re communication with yourself. No one wants to be told what to do, not your higher self, not your subconscious. So always ask and then listen for a response. If its a no then I want you to check in again and ask if its possible to release 10% of the blockage/pain or discomfort. Often if the subconscious is not able to release the whole it will be much easier be able to release a smaller portion of the blockage and once the subconscious sees that it can heal, that it can be release, then it will easily release more.

4. Surrender 

What’s important to understand is that you can not force or push yourself to heal, you always have to soften and surrender to the pain, to the healing process. The more you rush and push, the more resistance you will experience in the entire healing process. Again acceptance and responsibility for your own state of being with all that it encompasses is vital. 

5. Holding space

Holding space for yourself means to stay present in your discomfort, just to sit with it. To be with it, without pushing it away. Without trying to control it. Without trying to change anything. Complete acceptance. When you master this you will notice that everything changes, the pain will eventually shift, either it will go away or it will either intensify or start to soften. Either way you still just want to stay with it. Just be with it. Sort of like nurturing a sick child, you just need to be there for yourself. Your presence its all that is needed.

6. Asking for help

The final step is to ask God, the Universe, Source for help. Ask and its given. But you cannot ask and then push it to be taken away from you. You still have to follow all the above steps. You have to be with the pain, you have to accept the pain completely before you can release it. Sometimes we have to allow the pain to sit there until its ready to go. So if the above steps doesn't work I would finish my meditation but asking for release at the time where it serves me and leave it at that. Still in complete surrender. 

What you resists persists.

Ultimately when we set our intention to heal, we start a process that’s so grand, thats so encompassing that everything in our lives will shift at some degree. That means that when we set our intentions to heal we activate everything that’s blocking us from true healing to be removed. That may mean that relationships may fall apart, that might mean that your entire life may fall apart. That might mean that you’ll have to deal with all your suppressed negative emotions that you’ve been suppressing for years and years.

Nothing in this process is easy, but practice makes it easier. Often its the initial awareness of how you’re actually feeling that may become extremely overwhelming at first. On top of that when your soul is set to heal, it wants to purge all feelings that are not resonating with the healing process. Which means that the soul goes deep into the layers of your being, pulling out stuff that’s not serving. That is great but the only way to release is to feel what’s being released, which may at times be overwhelming.

For many people that have been taught through life not how to feel but rather how to suppress our emotions. How not to cry. How not to feel pain. We live in a society that pops pills to sedate, to numb ourselves out. We go online, we watch tv, we watch porn, we drink alcohol, we smoke weed, we take subscription pills, medications, the ways to numb our own pain is countless. What’s important for each individual person is to recognize what our own patterns are and when we are subconsciously retreating to those patterns.

Often our greatest fears and our greatest blockages are deeply hidden underneath many different protection mechanisms. Blocking us from feeling, blocking us from seeing into our soul because there’s been some deep instilled limiting beliefs that if we venture there the pain will be unbearable and we would rather live in denial, in ignorance than ever feeling that pain again.

These hidden subconscious fears may have nothing to do with our current life time. These fear and limiting beliefs that create blockages throughout our being may have been inherited from our ancestors, it may come from parallel existences, from previous life times. Either way, the story in itself where they may come from doesn’t really matter. If it does then it will come up during the release but often the choice to incarnate into this lifetime is a compressed form of all lifetimes that you’ve ever lived. Which means that even though you’re just experiencing yourself as this human form, you’re much more than just this individual person, this individual soul, in fact you are a multidimensional being. That exists in more places than one, in fact you’re existing at all places all at once. So don't try to make sense of what you're purging, just allow yourself to feel it without an attachment to it. Try to feel into all and any resistance to feeling it because often therein lies the key for release. We are always our own healer. 

Much Love, ​Kristina

The Right Way To Feel

You may have heard the expression 'You have to feel it to heal it', if you follow me then you know I use it all the time because it is one of those epic cornerstone teachings of healing.

But what does it actually mean? How do you heal through feeling?

The meaning of that you have to feel it to heal it, is that if we ignore anything, we are pushing it away. If you push it away you are making it stronger as you're showing the universe (you, yourself and You) that this is something you need to work on because ta da you're resisting it. Thus there must be some juiciness in there to work on. 

Which means that the issue that we resist will most likely come up in our external reality. Again and again of we continuously resist the lesson, if we resist it enough it will come back with force and eventually it will be the ONE issue that makes our life a living hell.

As time goes on the initial issue may be hurdled up into a mess of different resistances that we just don't want to face within ourselves or anyone else for that matter. That will manifest as a continuous judgement of others doing what we ourselves are doing but resisting and ignoring within ourselves. 

So as we judge others and ourselves while continuously trying to ignore our feelings, how does it feel to judge ourselves and others so harshly for example? What sort of energies does that create within yourself to begin with?

See nothing can be done without presence. Nothing can be changed, nothing can be awakened within without presence. The reason for this is very related to duality and the game of light (a misspell that turned out beautiful, let's not say game of life anymore, let's say game of light because that's more true).

See if we believe in the illusion, the illusion becomes stronger. While if we face the illusion, the discomfort, the pain, "the suffering", we are facing the shadow (literally) with light. Because you are light, you are pure consciousness, you may have forgotten that you are light but you are. So when you feel to heal, you are literally placing your light within an illusion of discomfort. The reason I say illusion of discomfort is because as you become proficient in feeling, you will notice that everything you place your attention on will go away. Everything but Love and Light is an illusion. Nothing is and can ever be more powerful than our own presence. Our own light, facing whatever darkness within will always transcend. Sometimes it just takes time.

A exercise that I love to advice my clients to use is to imagine themselves as blind people stepping into a new space (their feeling self) where they've never been before. They should familiarize themselves with the surroundings inside, where does it feel good? Where does it feel less so? Going into the areas that feel less good without judgment but with a healthy amount of curiosity. Just explore how it feels like to be inside this pain or discomfort whether it be physical or emotional. Just feel it as if you were blind discovering a new object. How does it feel like? What shape does it have? Is it warm? Is it cold? Is it sharp? Is it dry? Is it wet? How does it feel if you go deep inside of it? Can you? 

You will notice that when you go inside with the attitude of an explorer you will find that everything that you're exploring is melting away and continuously changing as you place your entire attention upon it. Again this is happening because light literally melts shadows. Or transcend if you want a prettier word. Remember you are light.

Becoming comfortable in our own discomfort, helps the discomfort go away. The more discomfort we can feel, the more light we can hold. Eventually we become beacon of lights and we start to step into our true state of being, beyond the illusion of mortality, into the light that we are.

Much Love, Kristina