The process of awakening will always go through expansions followed by contractions followed by expansions and contractions. At first the expansions and the contractions seem as they are as far from each other as they possibly can be (heaven and hell) and we may feel that we are going from a very high to a very low. Then as we have had our deepest dips and made it out alive the dips become more and more shallow as does the highs of the expansions. They are still as high but we don't feel them as high anymore. The highs have started to become integrated into you, you are starting to be able to hold these higher frequencies on a day to day basis.
You may imagine the contractions and expansions as a sinus wave, the middle is where we find our own equilibrium. This equilibrium is constantly changing throughout the awakening, giving us feelings of being lost, not knowing who we are or what we should do with ourselves and this life we got. Yet as the awakening progresses our sinus wave will start to begin to flatten out. We will have less dips and less of the very highs instead we are starting to live at a higher frequency every day.
I think it's important to understand this process because it can feel so challenging when we hit a really deep dip after a profound high. It can be so extremely discouraging, feeling like we did something wrong. When really it's just about integrating new energies within.
After a really profound expansion the light that we just experienced needs to be integrated and this light will find everything within you that is not allowing this expansion to be fully held within your being. The dip afterwards is really the integration of the light, bringing up everything that is not of the light. Yes that can be absolutely excruciating.
Understanding this process can help us when we feel that we lost our connection to the Divine, to our eternal Self. It can help us to intellectually understand the process that we are going through. It can help us to continue to move forward even if we feel scared that continuing will bring us even more pain. So we stop all our practices because the energy scares us, the darkness that we experience inside scares us so we fold up and want to hide from it and to hide from ourselves. Or even going so far as wanting to extinguish ourselves so that we may never experience pain like this again.
This is where we need to find the courage to face ourselves, to really grab all the tools that we have. To continue the daily healing practices, to continue to feel it all, to continue to stay present with it all. Because the resistance to face the pain inside will just prolong the process, it will keep us stuck in the contraction never allowing us to come into another expansion.
Eventually as the highs and the lows start to flatten out, you will have found a depth within your being that is beyond anything. You will find love and peace and a deep sense of self that merges with everything if you fully relax into it. Yet you will be more you than you've ever been you before. It's so worth it.
So keep going my friend, keep going, I believe in you.
Much Love, Kristina