When you practise the following, concentrate on the Muladhara Chakra at the base of the spinal column, which is triangular in form and which is the seat of the Kundalini Shakti.

Close the right nostril with your right thumb. Inhale through the left nostril till you count 3 Oms slowly.

Imagine that you are drawing the Prana with the atmospheric air.

Then close the left nostril with your little and ring fingers of the right hand. Then retain the breath for 12 Oms. Send the current down the spinal column straight into the triangular lotus, the Muladhara Chakra.

Imagine that the nerve-current is striking against the lotus and awakening the Kundalini.

Then slowly exhale through the right nostril counting 6 Oms.

Repeat the process from the right nostril as stated above, using the same units, and having the same imagination and feeling.

This Pranayama will awaken the Kundalini quickly. Do it 3 times in the morning and 3 times in the evening. Increase the number and time gradually and cautiously according to your strength and capacity.

In this Pranayama, concentration on the Muladhara Chakra is the important thing. Kundalini will be awakened quickly if the degree of concentration is intense and if the Pranayama is practised regularly

I've realised these past years that forgiveness doesn't come by itself unless I've been determined to forgive. My mind has interfered so many times arguing for why "they" did wrong and why the feeling of forgiveness almost felt threatening. Because if I forgave would I put myself in danger? Would I let the people that hurt me back in a position to hurt me?

So I've prayed to God to help me see the way beyond my mind because the unforgiveness I've carried has felt too much of a burden to carry and lately I've been tired of reiterating the same story over and over again. Yes I have compassion for myself and my own healing process but I also feel I am completely done with the past. I'm done with feeling like a victim.

I think that's a sign of healing, the willingness to let go. I understand that I cannot force myself to forgive or to let go. Sometimes it's a process that takes time. For me I needed to start feeling safe within myself again and I needed to start trusting myself again. That I could make the right decisions in my life without putting myself in danger.

It meant that I had to do some deep inner work with my inner child. That part of myself that felt out of control, that felt that she was not in control and that others ruled her world and that she had to be dependent on people that felt unsafe to her. I had to be the one that reached out a hand to my inner child and said - I got this. I am there for you. I am listening. I am hearing and seeing you. I will hold you until you feel better again. I got the time and I got the space for you, however long you need.

Then the realisation came that this - whatever 'this' is/was.. this came up so that I could heal 'this'. That's also why this process took so much longer than what I would have thought and expected of myself. Because it touched upon something so much deeper. It touched upon a place deep inside where I didn't feel safe in the world. Where I didn't feel safe to be me.

It was never really about them. It was always about me. About what this process triggered within me so that I could heal, so that I could start to love myself, so that I could start to respect myself. As I am. It has also allowed me to start taking responsibility for myself and how I show up in the world. It doesn't overwhelm me anymore because I don't find the world overwhelming anymore. In the place where I was, where I felt unsafe within, because I felt dependent on the world around me to feel 'safe' to be able to feel safe inside. Thus it left me in a place where I needed to control what happened around me. It made me dependent on the world around me.

In a way I understand that I am dependent on the world around me, we are all interdependent on each other in different ways. Yet that feeling of trust in God, trust in my place within this dream. Trust that wherever I go, there I am. Yet that used to feel like I needed to hold on to something. Rather now, I find that I can let go, let myself free fall into the unknown.

It's funny because in many ways, I have taught others about this, I know this process intellectually. I have moved through this process before, yet this time I went deeper than before and maybe I can say that I embodied the teaching so much more. Another layer of integration has taken place.

That part of myself that felt shame for not having handled the situation, the process better. That part of me that thought I should move through all of this so much faster. That part has accepted where I am. Because I can see the benefits of having gone deeper in this process. My heart feels different, my energy feels different. My heart is more open yet the love feels different from before. I used to be so submissive and wanting to please so bad. I loved so deeply but with a pattern of abandoning myself in the process. Now my love feels strong yet not submissive, not below and not above. My restlessness have left me, my need to go here and there has left me. Most of all I feel like a great tree with great roots that is ready to settle down. To let what may come to come. From within and from without.

Thank you for reading.

So much love,


The throat chakra and the feet/legs tend to be the most blocked in everyone I work with. The throat chakra is one of the most fascinating chakras as it's not just related to our voice but it's really related to our truth and who we are in the world. Or rather the face(s) that we show up with in the world.

When we open our throat chakra we let go of the masks that we have held over our face, the ideas of who we should be and we become the unique essence that we are underneath it all.

When we open our throat chakra our voice becomes more clear and much much deeper. If you always thought you couldn't sing, then you just need to work on opening your throat because we can all sing. It's just the things that lie on top of our voice that makes our voice "unpretty" or unable to hold a clear tune. That's why chanting and singing mantras can be such a powerful practice to open our voice and to release the blockages to be heard and to be seen. Or simply to start telling your truth and to never lie, to yourself or others.

Starting to chant or to sing higher vibrational sounds like mantras are also a very powerful energetic practice which allows us to become our own tuning fork. Our own signing bowl. I personally found that I can find things in my field that I hadn't even noticed before I started my chanting on that specific day. Through my voice it's like I activate a higher part of myself that I can't access unless I use my voice, or rather unless I use my voice to sing mantras especially. I can see where there are blockages in my voice and through the blockages in my voice I can see where I might hold on to emotions or things that are blocking the energy from moving through freely.

The voice is an immensely powerful tool for healing. Through our voice we become pure vibration and we send that vibration through our entire physical form. We naturally bridge the space between physical form and energy because sound is pure energy - pure vibration.

If the front of our throat is who we are in the world, our face forward then the back of our throat is our connection to our guides and our higher self. The back of our throat, our neck is through where we communicate with the spirit world. It's deeply connected to our ears and our pharynx. How much can we hear without our mind interfering? How much truth can we hear? How much can we trust our own inner guidance?

If we feel that we have to hold back of who we are, can we say that we feel safe in the world? If we feel that we have to hide behind masks, how safe do we feel in ourselves? To be who we truly are?

Each on of us comes with unique gifts and talents that are complementary to others gifts and talents. This idea that capitalism and limitations has given us is that we have to compete for resources and for survival. Whereas in reality, yes there are finite resources on this planet but if we share and manage together as one, where each one of us complements the whole then we will always have enough. Then each one of us are valuable to the whole.

One of the fascinating things about becoming our true self and starting to express our truth is that it's not always pleasing to others. This doesn't mean that we are mean or at odds with others rather we may not be able to be what others want or expect us to be. Instead we start to care for our own needs and maybe speak our truth with less charge to it. Because what's the need to argue and fight when we know that our truth is truth, there's no need to convince anyone else. When I hear me, I have much less need for you to hear me, or to understand me. Rather I can accept that there are parts of me that you will never understand because in the end we are reflections of each other more than anything else. What I see in you is a reflection of me and what you see in me is a reflection of you.

When I hear and understand me, I have less need for anyone to hear or understand me. I don't need the external validation or acceptance anymore. Because I have already given myself that acceptance and validation from myself. I have in many ways become free to be me.

I truly believe that the throat chakra is our gateway to freedom. To be our unique self - just as we were born, without masks or pretences. Free to be as we are.

Thank you for reading.

Much Love,