I remember this dream I had a couple of years ago. In the dream I recognised that I was dreaming because I was on a ferry of some kind and the pictures on the wall were moving as if they were alive - true Harry Potter style. So in that moment that I realised that I was dreaming I asked to go to Paradise. I think I had decided before hand that it was something I wanted to know how it looked like.

What I experienced next after having stated this request within, I felt myself melting through the "walls" to the next world. The next world that I melted into I was levitating (floating) above the ground and so was everyone else. I remember somehow landing in a family home and as if I was a part of a family. The other people in the household didn't seem faced that I had appeared, they acknowledged me but never interacted such as speaking or anything more than side nods but it was if I was a part of the family. The men all had beards that were shaved in a very odd way where the bottom part was shaved off but only the sides cutting over the cheek was kept. The women such as myself all wore tops that were cut to expose the boobs. All of the women thus had their breasts out including myself. The doors were all round and when I decided to leave the building that was also round I floated away to a market that had giant strawberries and that was pretty much it. I've always thought about that dream since it wasn't at all what I would have imagined paradise to be and it left me feeling a little confused and bewildered since I never remembered to ask why that was paradise?

But I think the response that I got from asking to see Paradise is well what do you mean? Specify. And maybe Paradise is different for each person? How does your paradise look like? Maybe my dream was someones Paradise? Or maybe Paradise is just a name that we have given certain associations to.

I keep thinking about my ideal world, what is that? How does that world look like? How do people in an ideal world live with each other? What do we eat? How do we grow our food?

How are peoples unique skills and abilities being honoured in the society?

What ceremonies and rituals do we hold and why?

How do we live with nature and what are our beliefs about nature?

How do we live? In what kinds of houses? How do our "cities" communities look like? How big are they? How are they constructed? Can you imagine a world where complete harmony and complete peace exists between all living beings? How does such a place feel like to be in? What happens if you close your eyes and give your self some space to listen into these questions and showing you how that would look like and how that would feel like.

What comes to your inner world when you ask these questions? Take time and keep asking these questions? See what comes up, see where you see yourself in this world? What are you doing in Paradise? How do you live? What do you do? Play with it and enjoy coming into the frequency of the world that you are creating in your inner mind. See if you can open up to the idea of birthing a new world into being. ❤️

Much Love,


Picture from the Dark Crystal series.

Whatever comes to us in life, if we can be present with our self, with our triggers, our reactions, our judgments, our feelings and emotions or motions like I like to call them. If we can be present with our inner waves they move through and we don't get stuck in them. Instead we expand and allow more energy to move through our being. The more presence we can hold, the more energy we can hold inside.

It's when we resist presence by numbing ourselves out in different ways that's when we remain in a patterns of delusion or in a pattern of pain and I'm sure you know your own special ways of hiding from yourself if not presence will let you know.

As soon as we bring our presence to whatever that we experience, we bring more light and energy to ourselves and to the feeling. That means at first what we are feeling will increase, because we are starting to illuminate what we are feeling. That means that if we felt a little bit sad or a little bit pain that sadness and pain will most likely get stronger because we are bringing our full awareness and full attention to the feeling, we are not just experiencing the top of the iceberg, we start to feel the whole iceberg and all the hidden aspects of the pain that we have previously not wanted to experience or feel.

But if we can allow ourselves to stay with the feeling even if its uncomfortable and even as it gets stronger then the energy will start to shift. Your awareness and your presence does this. That the feeling gets stronger is an indication that the energy is starting to move. As you stay there within the feeling and being present with any thoughts that are coming up and if the thoughts are overwhelming I would start focusing on the sensation of my breath at the bottom of my nostrils and just focus on those sensations until the insistent or repetitive thoughts have given way. They will if you just shift your focus. Thoughts will come up, often negative thoughts that are related to the pain that we are experiencing or thoughts of resistance out of fear of feeling the feelings that are coming up.

The resistance is natural, the feelings that we don't want to feel, we don't want to feel them as it will feel like experiencing an old trauma. However small or however great the feeling is, our natural inclination is to move towards pleasure. Yet the secret to real pleasure is through the feeling of buried pain because on the other side of that pain is the eternal love and the eternal light. Through your presence you activate that light inside.

Through practice we can become masters of presence, then we know that this too shall pass and we know that the healing is in the feeling so the resistance to feeling naturally subsides.

The more you practice presence inside the more sensitive you become and the more of the subtle nuances you will feel inside and the deeper you can go.

Know that sometimes the pain that we experience in one part of our being, may it be physical, emotional, spiritual - cannot be released until another part has been seen and acknowledged. Your Higher Self , the Divine energy inside of you knows exactly how to open you up and what the next step is for you to witness and to bring to your awareness. Because that's what is showing up for you in now. Follow the subtle sensations in your body, they are guiding you to where to go to next.

Much Love,


I finally have a computer again and I can communicate with the world with much greater ease. One thing that I've truly learned and am still learning here in Peru is patience. I don't think I've ever been given so much practice in patience and in letting go and allowing things to be as they are even if I wish they were different.

I've learned that even what feels like a struggle or what feels like mistakes are often just a process. This process of awakening can feel like its a never ending journey and I mean it is. 😏

The thing is that I needed to not communicate with the world for a while. I needed to come back to another place within myself, this place of wanting to communicate. Not because I feel that I should but because I want to connect. This urge to connect has been growing these last three months since I arrived up here in the Sacred Valley but its taken me until now to get the computer I wanted.

I needed to go through a process of healing (again) and coming down to a new place within myself and I keep repeating this to myself. I keep writing this and yet I don't really know what it means. So diffuse and subtle yet I know that I'm intrinsically different. I have this deeper comfort within myself and I'm much more grounded in my body.

It's funny because the first couple of years after my awakening I had such a specific idea of what I was trying to "be". Now more that 10 years after my awakening, everything is becoming more and more ordinary. I don't think about those moments of being at one with everything or feeling connected to everything or the moments of pain and discomfort that I still experience. Instead they are moving and I'm witnessing and I'm a part of it all.

I felt the weight of the world lately and at times I just want to shake the world awake and then I remember that it's already happening. The energy is getting stronger and stronger by the day and the pressure is upon us to transform, to transmute the old. We are being bombarded with light and I find some days hard to be in the world because all I can do is to lie down and process the energy. I have come to acceptance that this is what is needed now. That our perception of what needs to be done or how a day should look like is just an idea.

When we slow down and listen we can allow the day to be or the night for that matter. We have to give ourselves the space to sit with what comes up. Whether it's painful or ecstatic, the process of awakening demands the time for you to be there with it. That goes before anything.

When we allow ourselves to sit with it, with the knowing that when we are with the energy whatever the energy hold at that moment (pain, sadness, joy, excruciating expansion, fear, love...) it will pass. It will move through.

Often if not always great expansion is followed by great contraction before the new frequency has been fully integrated into your being. So that means that after a great heart expansion for example you will most likely feel heartache and heart contraction the day after or a few days after the expansion. The contraction will pass after the new paradigm for your heart has been established.

So this is a time to slow down and listen to your inner guidance. To trust that you are held, that now more than anytime before you are supported in your awakening. That requires your willingness to face yourself on all levels. To become responsible for all that you feel and all that you think. To soften in all ways and to find your own Self within.

It's important to remember that what we believe an awakened person is and how an awakened person should behave isn't always the truth. That's why it's important to look at preconceived ideas of who you should be and how you should act and learn to listen within. You are unique and you are supposed to be unique, what do you like? How do you feel good? What brings you joy? How do you want to live your life?

These are interesting questions to ask and look at. I found that what I thought I wanted many years ago wasn't really what I truly wanted from my heart and soul but preconceived ideas of how I thought I should live. But those answers only come if we allow ourselves to ask them and to sit with them. We create our own world in communion with the rest of the collective consciousness of humanity, but we are also very independent in creating our own reality. The strongest and most powerful energy will always be Love, it transmutes everything else.

So look at all the beliefs of your reality, what's possible, what's "right" and what's "wrong". Especially look at your triggers and your judgements. Do it with excitement and curiosity not judgment of yourself. We are learning and we are all walking each other home, so see it as getting to know yourself and to see where your creations come from, all of them. The greatest healing comes from simple presence. Our most intense triggers can be cleared and released if we just sit with them until there's no negative or positive charge left. When we have neutralised it. We do so through presence, through our awareness.

This is a time of allowance, this energy will be excruciating if we try to fight or hold on to the old. It's easier if you allow and surrender and receive the light. If you understand that the pain is coming up because it wants to release. If you in the moments of stress or discomfort allow the space to sit with it. To allow it to come through. To allow yourself to listen to the parts that doesn't want to, that wants things to be different. Theres a place for action but its not in the places of great stress or discomfort. Allow the emotional pain to move through, come to stillness and then act. When we do, we find that the situation as often shifted by its own and that we from that place of integration have a different perspective on everything.

That's really how we move and shift through timelines.

So Much Love,


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