Be Your Own Best Friend

We tend to be the hardest to ourselves, beating ourselves up for not being enough, for not doing enough, not having enough, not having achieved enough… the list can go on..

So instead of beating yourself up, become your best friend and you will soon notice how easily things just start to fall into place without effort. Instead of forcing yourself to take action, the action will come naturally from a place of joy.

You will find that when you're kind to yourself, you will start enjoying your own company. You will find peace within yourself and the world.

Everything stems from one original thought, so does your self love so start to appreciate yourself by cultivating positive thoughts about yourself and the uniqueness you bring to this world.

You are a gift, to yourself and to this world, make it special!

Iboga - My Meeting with the Master Healer

For weeks now, I've been trying to write down my experience of Iboga and I keep erasing my words and restarting again. Its so hard to put into words that which cannot truly be conveyed by words alone. But let me give it a try.

For me as a healer, my soul purpose is to bring more light into the planet. That's why I'm here, that's why I choose to incarnate into this form and into this time. To assist with the shift that we are currently experiencing. For me to grow as a healer I need to continue to learn and grow, to expand with the light, and as I have found it difficult to find a teacher in the physical realm, I've come to rely on the one within me.

I have also been guided by my higher self to find powerful allies in the Plant Spirit Medicines, which I doubt I could ever find in human form or maybe my time with such a human teacher has yet to be manifested for me. In the mean time by ingesting Iboga and other Spirit Plants, I allow the Plant Spirit to possess me for the amount of time that the plant is activated, during which a great transformation and healing takes place.

I've read quite a few accounts of other people consuming Iboga, mostly former addicts that consumed the plant so that they could overcome an addiction, a practice that is proven to be extremely effective. But I lack a testimonial from someone that is energetically and spiritually aware of what is actually happening on a physical AND energetic level. I have not found one testimonial that describes the immensely powerful energetic healing that Iboga performs, yet I'm also curious to know if because of my inclination of being a healer and also my 'openness' led me to have quite a different and seemingly more intense experience than most.

What I've read afterwards is that most people have an intense period for the first 6-8 hours where they hallucinate intensely and then the experience fades. There are supposed to be no hallucinations while the eyes are open. My experience was quite different, I did hallucinate for a full 36 hours, it didn't stop until I finally could fall asleep and when I woke up the spirit was finally gone and so were the hallucinations..

My visions were both with my eyes open and while they were closed. The hallucinations were quite different though, the ones I perceived with my eyes closed were intensely uncomfortable and made me lose track of time and space. A little bit like falling into the rabbit hole.. In the experiences I perceived while my eyes were closed I saw myself from the outside as I have never seen myself before, Iboga showed me how beautiful I was, and what a beautiful person I am. I write this with tears in my eyes because there were parts of my heart that was missing before, that I had no idea that they were missing until Iboga retrieved them for me and healed my heart. It also showed what I believe to be my past lives not just on this planet but on many different planes of existence. I saw the fields from the angelic wars, I saw floods of blood, of mutilations and gore that I wouldn't wish upon anyone to see.. Iboga teased me, seduced me, and humoured me when I said no more... Also important to mention, Iboga is definitely NOT a pleasure trip of any kind, extreme and violent nausea was experienced throughout the whole 36 hour journey, as my body seemed to try to purge the substance out of my physical self in the fastest way possible.

As a healer I went into the experience to HEAL myself, and while Iboga was working, I started working with Iboga, asking it to open and expand my energy field, asking it to work for me rather than being taken for a ride. Clearing karma from lifetimes, healing ancestral disorder and making me feel more whole than I have ever felt. This is why I believe the experience was different for me, not only is my third eye wide open already but I also have a deep knowledge and understanding of the realms outside of this world.

So with my eyes open trying to escape my inner visions for a while.. (36 hours is a looong time..) Iboga would show me video's from what I understood to be Andromeda, where I was also asked to go after this life time(??). I was shown landscapes that reminded me of the movie Avatar, with floating Islands hanging midair. I was shown dragons of all different colours and the most amazing animals, truly out of this world. Continuing to remind me of how limited this 3D existence truly is.

In the end the greatest lesson I learned was that all I EVER need to do is simply; ADD LOVE. In any instance where lack is perceived, ADD LOVE. If you feel betrayed, used, abused... any negative feeling which is in truth just an experience in LACK of LOVE. The cure is simply... ADD LOVE. Same thing with anything that you want... ADD LOVE! It works like magic, we forget that our mind is so powerful, that when we perceive ourselves of being in lack we feel that we are out of love and so our thoughts and actions reflect this belief. Thus by law of attraction we are left with less. All we need to do is add love.

You can expect me to write further on this subject as I do feel called to eventually work together with Iboga but I still have lots to learn..

So much love!!

Kristina

Hi there!

Hi there my name is Kristina, I created this blog since I feel the need to introduce myself in a eloquent manner for new clients. This also gives me a platform where I can tell my story, and share some of the lessons and knowledge I have come across in life and through my awakening.

First comes first, in the beginning of January 2011 I opened my third eye, and this is the story of my Kundalini awakening:

I was meditating while watching this youtube video, which I had done a billion times before. So anyway, while I was meditating the third eye pulled my eyes towards it which was a completely new phenomena for me, and I actually stopped meditating to google ‘third eye meditation’ because I got curious to know what was happening to me. Then I learned a little about third eye meditations and continued meditating now my eyes towards the third eye and it was very easy to quiet my mind (this was unusual) and it was as if someone was controlling my breathing, first really really fast like fire breathing and then very very slow, almost no breath at all. Suddenly I had the sensation as if a very BIG eye lid opened in my forehead, white light started trickling in from the third eye and I had a blink of a seconds decision to whether or not I wanted this, at the time I remember being very curious so I just let go and allowed it to happen. White light poured in through my third eye, like if it took me over. It was beautiful and then I felt this waterfall of bliss, extreme profound love and intense pleasure pouring over my body and skull. I have never experienced anything as pleasurable in my life, there are no words that come close to describing it. *  *  *  *  *  * My body felt like an energy being, just SO perfect and SO alive. I am so sorry but none of my words make my experience justice. It was the most beautiful experience of my life and I felt God as a part of myself or maybe I should say I felt myself as a part of God and everything. I felt ONE. But this is a big BUT, I still felt my body, my body didn’t go into everything. I felt my energy body, like the perfect undying thing that it is. My breath disappeared, because I remembered my mind thinking whether or not I was actually breathing because I couldn’t feel my chest moving nor could I feel my heart beating, I was vibrating heavily and I was in extreme bliss, I could have stayed there forever but extreme nausea overtook and I had to stop. *  *  *  *  *  * *  *  *  *  *  * I have since that experience lived in a different realm of reality, the best way to describe it would be that I have one foot in this dual reality as most people perceive it be and then my other foot in my new reality where everything is energy and we are interconnected to each other. I can feel my chakras as pulsating energy centers, where within a profound expansion exist and many more different realms of realities. I can feel other peoples chakras, and energy bodies. I can feel energy around me as waves of that pulsates through out my body continuously, and radiates from my heart at all times and I know I will never die. My body will shed but my true being will not.  *  *  *  *  *  * I have seen entities, I see lights floating around us all the time, the air around us sparkling with energy. The sky buzzing literary with energy. I have seen people turn into bright white lights, I have seen hearts lit up, as a bright light in their chest. I sometime see the color of auras, but most of the time I just see the bright light that we are. I see the energy from me interacting with the people around me like little electrical currents running through the air. This especially when just focusing at one point. I have seen my own body light up from just focusing on a specific part of the body.  For example if I stare at my knee and focus only at one point, within my knee a little sun will be created, if I continue focusing on this point this light will start to pulsate, from there on it seems to have its own life. It will move as it pleases as the intelligence that this energy is, it will go to where it needs to heal, it will go to where the blockages are. Blockages are in fact what creates diseases, if your energy system cannot flow smoothly, there will be imbalances in your system, mentally, physically and spiritually. The energy will create cold or heat depending on what is needed. I as Kristina don’t need any knowledge regarding what to do, I just need to focus where my energy should start. From there on the divine works its way. This is one way how I can give the energy.  *  *  *  *  *  * Another way is for me to go into another persons energy field and feel it is as if its my own and from there on clean their chakras. I don’t take over someone’s energy body, I don’t think that would be possible for me to do nor would it be in my interest to do so. I simply tap into their energy field, either with my mind or with my hands and through that I somehow feel how they feel inside, which includes feeling blockages that I then can clear out just like if I would clear my own. *  *  *  *  *  * My two most active chakras so far have been my heart and my third eye, I had quite some blockages in my throat chakra right after my awakening and I have been shedding a lot in that area in the last 6 months. I am basically finding my voice here and now. *  *  *  *  *  * From the beginning when I have asked what my purpose is I have been told to heal, at first I thought that I needed healing which was partly true but also that I am to be of service. The gratitude that I feel for having received this knowledge is beyond words, and I realize that what has been given to me can also be taken from me. I am still learning and I will be learning for the rest of my life as the journey unfolds. Again I am writing this to introduce myself for possible clients but also to share  and get in touch with people that might be experiencing the same as me.  *  *  *  *  *  * Thank you for reading! All is LOVE