I finally have a computer again and I can communicate with the world with much greater ease. One thing that I've truly learned and am still learning here in Peru is patience. I don't think I've ever been given so much practice in patience and in letting go and allowing things to be as they are even if I wish they were different.
I've learned that even what feels like a struggle or what feels like mistakes are often just a process. This process of awakening can feel like its a never ending journey and I mean it is. 😏
The thing is that I needed to not communicate with the world for a while. I needed to come back to another place within myself, this place of wanting to communicate. Not because I feel that I should but because I want to connect. This urge to connect has been growing these last three months since I arrived up here in the Sacred Valley but its taken me until now to get the computer I wanted.
I needed to go through a process of healing (again) and coming down to a new place within myself and I keep repeating this to myself. I keep writing this and yet I don't really know what it means. So diffuse and subtle yet I know that I'm intrinsically different. I have this deeper comfort within myself and I'm much more grounded in my body.