The process of awakening will always go through expansions followed by contractions followed by expansions and contractions. At first the expansions and the contractions seem as they are as far from each other as they possibly can be (heaven and hell) and we may feel that we are going from a very high to a very low. Then as we have had our deepest dips and made it out alive the dips become more and more shallow as does the highs of the expansions. They are still as high but we don't feel them as high anymore. The highs have started to become integrated into you, you are starting to be able to hold these higher frequencies on a day to day basis.
You may imagine the contractions and expansions as a sinus wave, the middle is where we find our own equilibrium. This equilibrium is constantly changing throughout the awakening, giving us feelings of being lost, not knowing who we are or what we should do with ourselves and this life we got. Yet as the awakening progresses our sinus wave will start to begin to flatten out. We will have less dips and less of the very highs instead we are starting to live at a higher frequency every day.
I think it's important to understand this process because it can feel so challenging when we hit a really deep dip after a profound high. It can be so extremely discouraging, feeling like we did something wrong. When really it's just about integrating new energies within.
After a really profound expansion the light that we just experienced needs to be integrated and this light will find everything within you that is not allowing this expansion to be fully held within your being. The dip afterwards is really the integration of the light, bringing up everything that is not of the light. Yes that can be absolutely excruciating.