Whatever comes to us in life, if we can be present with our self, with our triggers, our reactions, our judgments, our feelings and emotions or motions like I like to call them. If we can be present with our inner waves they move through and we don't get stuck in them. Instead we expand and allow more energy to move through our being. The more presence we can hold, the more energy we can hold inside.
It's when we resist presence by numbing ourselves out in different ways that's when we remain in a patterns of delusion or in a pattern of pain and I'm sure you know your own special ways of hiding from yourself if not presence will let you know.
As soon as we bring our presence to whatever that we experience, we bring more light and energy to ourselves and to the feeling. That means at first what we are feeling will increase, because we are starting to illuminate what we are feeling. That means that if we felt a little bit sad or a little bit pain that sadness and pain will most likely get stronger because we are bringing our full awareness and full attention to the feeling, we are not just experiencing the top of the iceberg, we start to feel the whole iceberg and all the hidden aspects of the pain that we have previously not wanted to experience or feel.
But if we can allow ourselves to stay with the feeling even if its uncomfortable and even as it gets stronger then the energy will start to shift. Your awareness and your presence does this. That the feeling gets stronger is an indication that the energy is starting to move. As you stay there within the feeling and being present with any thoughts that are coming up and if the thoughts are overwhelming I would start focusing on the sensation of my breath at the bottom of my nostrils and just focus on those sensations until the insistent or repetitive thoughts have given way. They will if you just shift your focus. Thoughts will come up, often negative thoughts that are related to the pain that we are experiencing or thoughts of resistance out of fear of feeling the feelings that are coming up.
The resistance is natural, the feelings that we don't want to feel, we don't want to feel them as it will feel like experiencing an old trauma. However small or however great the feeling is, our natural inclination is to move towards pleasure. Yet the secret to real pleasure is through the feeling of buried pain because on the other side of that pain is the eternal love and the eternal light. Through your presence you activate that light inside.
Through practice we can become masters of presence, then we know that this too shall pass and we know that the healing is in the feeling so the resistance to feeling naturally subsides.
The more you practice presence inside the more sensitive you become and the more of the subtle nuances you will feel inside and the deeper you can go.
Know that sometimes the pain that we experience in one part of our being, may it be physical, emotional, spiritual - cannot be released until another part has been seen and acknowledged. Your Higher Self , the Divine energy inside of you knows exactly how to open you up and what the next step is for you to witness and to bring to your awareness. Because that's what is showing up for you in now. Follow the subtle sensations in your body, they are guiding you to where to go to next.
Much Love,
Kristina