One of the most exciting and cool things about last year was the speed of change that my spine has been straightening out. I should have taken photos but I didn't so you just have to believe me when I tell you.
My spine has shifted so much last year and with that immense energetic changes. I grew up with a hunch because I didn't want to be the tallest girl in class or in school and I didn't want to be seen or rather I didn't want to stick out (and I did). So I tried to make myself small and that created permanent fixtures in my spine that has been out of alignment all my life.
The energy in my body seem to have decided that it's time for me to straighten up so the energy have been pushing me to crack my back into alignment. Last year was the most intense where at the beginning of the year two of my the vertebrates in my neck stood out about 1 cm each. Today they only stand out a few millimetres.
Some of the shifts have been huge and has left me going into certain states of consciousness or felt like I had to purge because as the vertebrates connect there's an immense energy that comes with it. I guess it could be likened to as connecting power lines, when there's a gap or a disconnect between the vertebrates the energy can't move freely, it becomes restricted but then when the vertebrates connect again there's a surge of energy because the energy that was disconnected is all the suddenly reconnected.
Most of the time there are these little small shifts that doesn't seem to do much difference on the outside but they click inside my head and I can feel that something is shifting within me. I'm amazed by this process. How my body knows exactly what to shift for the next move to be able to happen. I also realised how much energetic stagnation that was behind the hunch. As I released stuck energies the spine moved and opened up - again and again.
I want to write about this because for me it just a proof of how holy and amazing our bodies are. That there's an immense intelligence in our body that knows how to heal us. That even if we have in different way deformed and misused our body, the blueprint of the body is still there and active underneath it all and when you give it enough power it starts to move, it starts to act. I'm turning 40 this coming August and in many ways I'm healthier and stronger than I ever been and the fact that my spine is straightening out makes me believe that I don't know what the future holds for me. I think we hold more magic in our body than we can imagine, especially when the energy is awakened within us.
I don't have any fear of any disease or of my body getting sick because I trust my body. I believe in the magic that the body holds. I think in society there's a great separation between those that have connected to their body and that has connected to the Earth. I don't believe that consuming any manmade substances will make my body better. I just don't think we as humans are that smart (yet).
But the Divine. Ahh I'm so grateful to have this connection with the Divine within me, to trust myself and my body so deeply, to trust God this deeply. If I could share anything with you it would be the comfort that faith has given me over the years. I know its not something that's easy to create within but through practice you can let go of controlling and letting go to the ease of trust.
As for my spine. Well there's a little bit left to shift and my plan is to work with different medicines and yoga to help the energy move. I'm just started working with Kambo now and will continue for the next 6 months or so as I'm curious to see what continuous Kambo ceremonies will do for me. Often we talk about the physical purging with Kambo (which can be intense) but I really think the energy is what makes Kambo so powerful. I did three Kambo sessions last week and the first two sessions I never purged though I had some great energetic surges and a lot of energetic shaking afterwards. Still integrating those changes and looking forward to what more this medicine has to show me.
For a straight spine and an open heart.
So Much Love,