Its a beautiful offering and I encourage it strongly but you also have to understand that you have to work WITH God. No one is going to come and pick you up out of bed. You have to do that yourself.
You can be shown the way but you have to walk it. You'll be walking with God. Yet you have to take the step.
Just as the Divine Love is always available to us but we have to open up to receive it. We have to let it in.
We can study spirituality and different practices for years and years but unless we actually practice what we study then there's not going to be much difference.
Many ask me what method that they should try to awaken and I say pick one or pick three but DO THEM. The path inwards is simple. The methods are endless.
What should you focus on? Which one should you pick?
Choose the one that interest you. Choose the one that excites you. Follow your heart when it comes to practice. But then you need to practice.
Theres three scopes of focus that I would include, first is the body - your temple. Your body is Divine and self healing, treat it as such, give it the tools that it needs to work at its optimum capacity. Learn the right nutritional knowledge that you need to support your body in the best ways possible. Treat your body as the temple that it is.
The second is your mind - become the observer - learn techniques that helps you quite your mind. So that you can hear your heart, your soul, your truth. Learn to meditate, I recommend learning a few methods depending on your need. You may want to look into mindfulness, pranayama (breathing techniques), mantras, visualization, energy healing, single focused pointedness to mention a few.
The third is your soul, your atma, your eternal Self, seek it, nurture it, listen to it. Focus on awakening the eternal Self within you. Seek the eternal voice within. Seek the silent awareness that abides all. Intention is everything. "What you seek is seeking you."