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I'm coming to the end of my dieta, as I'm writing this right now I'm on my last day and then I'm complete. It's been a life changing experience and I want to share some of the deep healing that I've received from these plants.


When I first started this dieta, I drank 3 different plants for a month as an introduction to the dieta and then 2 months of drinking 19 different trees. All the plants in the dieta are considered love plants. Plants that help to open us up to more love within.


This dieta isn't offered to anyone because it can be very difficult to handle a lot of love. The reason for this is that the intensity of the love will bring up everything else that is not love. The plant dietas help us to scratch the surface so that we can go much deeper beyond our own limitations. We also become what we eat, so we also diet with different plants to become more like the spirits of the plants and to learn and share from them.


At first in the beginning when I was just dieting with 3 plants I felt filled with love, my feet were radiating love, I was radiating love from everywhere and I felt very almost jittery with love. Then when I started with the trees the intensity went down but I also felt that I was somewhat intoxicated by the plants throughout the day. A "high" that somehow became a normal after a while.


What really came through as the greatest change is how my presence and awareness in ceremony has changed dramatically. It has been a big initiation into being a Shaman and to hold the space for the healing of others in ceremony. From the beginning of the dieta my ceremonies shifted, this last little bit has been the most intense as we've been building up the intensity with the plants.


Now as I've been going into ceremony I'm not so much in my own process instead I'm very aware of the room and what's going on. It's a fascinating process where we the participants in the ceremony are being directed by Ayahuasca. Everything happens in unison as if we the participants are a big orchestra and Ayahuasca is the conductor setting the beat and the tone of the entire ceremony.


It's about becoming extremely lucid (awake and aware) while being very deep in the medicine at the same time.


The dieta has helped me to be able to process much more negative energies and to be much less sensitive to it. Meaning that I can feel it being there, but it doesn't personally affect me as it could in the past. Instead I seem to be able to feel more of everyone yet still being deeply grounded in my own light within. Hard to explain maybe but it's really about being able to hold much much more love and light and to be able to stay as a witness without being affected personally.


My desire to be of service to the whole has also grown immensely, I feel a deep joy and contentment to be on this path and to live this life. Deep gratitude bubbles from my inner being and I feel happy. Not in a high way but more in an integrated way of being if that makes sense?


Towards the end of the dieta just now about a week ago, in the last retreat that we had, I had one of the biggest breakthroughs of this lifetime. So each 10 day retreat that we have at Los Cielos we drink Ayahuasca 5 times and the guests also have 3 kambo sessions plus some other ceremonies and things but anyway. I think it was the end of the 2 or 3rd ceremony and I was going to bed and as I've been helping out in ceremony the whole night I never went deep into my own process (which is normal) so as I was trying to go to sleep I hear Ayahuasca say 'I'm going to open you up like I never opened you before'. Ok I thought and I was just lying there waiting and then nothing happened so I was like ok whatever. Didn't think more of it than that.


Then the following ceremony I start to feel that I'm getting a sore throat and I feel how I'm starting to feel more and more sensitive inside my head as you feel when a cold is creeping up on you. I only felt the cold come on, on my left side of my head and then my nose started to drip and it was also just from my left nostril and I was feeling the drain from my left side of my brain towards the front of my head. Kind of uncomfortable, just feeling weak and tired, as you do when you get a cold.


The next day I was ill but I was up and about helping out. Then by 6pm at night I passed out and when I woke up in the morning the next day I was so sad. I felt like no one cared about me and no one cared that I was sick and not feeling well. Went back to bed again as I really wasn't feeling well and then I slept until the afternoon. I hadn't eaten anything all day and I was hungry but most of all I was extremely sad. A sadness my mind couldn't understand. The intensity of the feelings that no one cared for me was coming so strongly.


Then Sylvie comes by with a glass of green drink (a superfood blend powder in water) to give me some nutrients cause she said the ladies in the kitchen had noticed I hadn't eaten all day and was worried about me. At this point the feeling like I wasn't cared for was so strong that I couldn't take in that they actually did care for me. Instead I back lashed and said to Sylvie that they don't care at all and they're just being mean to me (they tease me a lot and not always so nicely kind of like being with sibilings.. :) ) but normally I don't take it personally but this day I couldn't shake it off. So Sylvie looks at me and says ok, drink this drink it will make you feel better and walks away.


I go into my room drink the drink and then start to cry and I cry so hard I can't do anything else. Then Sylvie returns and I'm lying in fetus position on my bed and I'm bawling, I can't move I can't do anything I'm so extremely sad and I don't know why I'm so sad. Sylvie just holds me and I tell her I don't know why I'm so sad and she says I don't know why you're so sad either..


Then all the suddenly I feel this little coin sized block above my left hip, it's intensely painful and I go into it with my awareness (I'm still crying). As I go into it I go on this journey and I realize that my whole life I never believed that anyone ever really cared about me. That no one has ever loved me. This includes my parents, my friends, my lovers, all my relationships.


That this is a belief that I've been carrying for lifetimes. Many lifetimes.


So as this core belief starts to leave my being the intensity of the energy that has been blocked is starting to be unleashed and my body is going into spontaneous Kriyas. The energy was so intense and I'm glad that Sylvie was there because it was almost overwhelmingly intense and her presence and love helped me so much. Then it finally calms down and I'm back in control over my body again. I'm still to this day releasing stuff, different threads that has grown from that core belief and I will probably keep releasing for a while as it was so deep.


I find it very interesting that I've experienced so much love, of experiencing being one with it all, that everything is love and yet there has been a part of me (not all) that hasn't believed so and my left side has been very blocked from this. Now afterwards everything is stronger. The love, the acceptance, the calm, the peace, the joy. I'm very curious to see how it may play out in my life. Like I said that little block that was SO HUGE has affected all my relationships for many lifetimes and when we release a core belief we release all the threads that has grown from there. It's like finding the mother ship of all the other ships and by destroying the mother ship all the other envoys are eliminated as well because they don't have that underlying core belief that is feeding them strength to exist within anymore.


We always want to get to the core belief but it can take time to get there.


Now this all happened all very recently so I can't really give a full disclosure of the effects it may have on my life. Nor what this dieta with the Amorosas has given me other than a much deeper love for everything. A much deeper faith and a feeling of truly being plugged into Gaia and in Source.


At this point starting tomorrow morning I'm off my dieta for two weeks at least, then I will probably go on another 3 month dieta with the Amorosas but probably some other love plants that I haven't had in this dieta that I'm just finishing. I asked why I was supposed to go on more Amorosas and they said because you can so that's great I guess. Must mean I'm handling it pretty well, I still want to go on a little small dieta in between before I start and I'm thinking of either dieting with Toe and Marusa again or to diet with Chiric Sanango which is another visionary plant that I've never worked with before. I will work with them all eventually but I guess it's about listening to who calls me the most at this time and also ask my teachers Rocio and Sylvie for some guidance.


I love this work so much. Thank you for reading and coming a long for a part of the journey.


So Much Love,

Kristina



I've just spent two almost three months in seclusion. Not complete seclusion but enough to start to get bored with being by myself then we had a deep retreat that blew my socks off and I'm just coming out of that trying to find my words again.


Often in this work I think of what can I share to help and I think its the same thing over and over and it is. It's really not complicated. The theory is not complicated in itself. The practice of healing is hard because it requires your presence.


Most of us today cannot focus on anything longer than a few seconds. We are constantly fed with information and we are addicted to it. In many ways we act as computers, we just feed ourselves with constant information, but contrary to computers we are not very good at processing or organizing the information that we receive. Often and a lot are just absorbed and never reflected upon. How much gore and violence do you think exist in your consciousness and in your energy field from just watching movies, tv-shows and the news? Everything that you see you absorb.


There's in a way nothing wrong with absorbing a lot of information but if you never digest what you absorbed, then how do you know the effect it may have on you (in this present moment) or maybe your mind has turned into an overflowing toilet? Where the continuous flow is the only thing that can give relief. That means that we NEED the constant flow of information and when this information slows down then we don't know what to do with ourselves.


We start to notice how uncomfortable we actually feel in our own self. We have already absorbed so much information that its really hard to make sense of everything and even to make sense of what makes us so anxious and so uncomfortable. So we continue to add more information so that we don't actually have to FEEL anything. Really stuff the toilet, when we are here we tend to start to numb ourselves with different substances and more intense sedative practices.


Again and again I face this, people that really struggle with themselves and their own healing and they just can't bare when the healing process actually starts working for them. Its too much to feel, its too much to bare.


This is one of the things that I love with Ayahuasca, because once you've taken it you can't leave it. She got you, she's in you and if she wants to take you there she will. Yet even with plant medicines powerful such as Ayahuasca you still need your awareness and your presence. Without it you can drink as much as you want to and yet not really achieve anything in the long run. All my teacher says to me, is to concentrate. If I ask 'and then what'?, she looks at me funny and says it again. Just concentrate and then it will come. Concentrate. Focus your energy, to be present, to listen. To be THERE.


The entire practice again and again is to learn to SIT WITH IT.


I hear from clients that contact me years after their session, telling me how they suffered after the session but never contacted me. Never booked another session. They got scared. I can understand that but when you're in that process of healing/PURGING. Letting go of negative energies, feeling them so that they can be released and transformed to light again. When you're in that really uncomfortable space (it can be more or less of course) the only way "out" is to stay.


You got to stay, you got to stay in your awareness and not get swept up in the story and you have to feel everything and if you can manage that, then the "issue" just unravels itself and goes away. The light does that. You just remember again, your light remember who you are and goes back to a state of love.


But often because the density of the negativity that we as a collective hold, we may not experience those feelings of love until they become the majority. Until then you may be healing yet still feeling ucky yucky.


Also, I cannot stress this enough but just as your body needs daily care and care taking in many different forms to be healthy and well, your energy field also needs daily continuous work. It's not enough to go to a healer or to go and meditate every once in a while. If you want to do the work, if you want to heal, you really need to show up. For yourself.


One of the biggest issues that we are facing as a collective today is self-hatred. It's so deep, its' so immensely deep and so many including myself have deep patterns of self-destructive behavior. We are afraid of our own light for many different reasons so we dim it in different ways by NOT showing up for ourselves.


I don't want this post to be me patting you on the head by all means, we are all in this together and I find that I really really need to SIT with my own things because if I don't then I go unconscious again. The practice has to be at every moment. You don't meditate to feel better, you meditate to come into a state of meditation with the world. Presence.


I love you. Thank you for reading and thank you for walking this path with me. What I've learned is that when you do show up and when you do face those patterns and those avoidance mechanisms, that can be so strong, unconscious and slippery, yet when we really face them with the determination to just be THERE. Things start to shift and yet we do have to go there again and again but then eventually its all gone and that's real true healing and it can only come through your presence. All the Universe wants to do is to love you and for you to be able to receive that love and FEEL it, so that you can BE IT. To get there you have to stay present in feeling EVERYTHING else without attaching yourself to the story. Again and again, over and over.


That IS the practice. <3!


Much Love,

Kristina


Ps. If you want to connect with me more often, check out my personal Instagram account where I post more everyday stuff but also some about plant dietas, books, food and what nots. :) Ds.




"In 2012 Gaia moved into a higher dimension, this shift is still being integrated. Because we have free will, the ascension process is a conscious choice that each being has to take. Through this shift Earth split into two, actually many more but let's simplify this right now with just two Earths co-existing as one. There's the Earth realm that's still in 3D, and then its the "new" 5D Gaia. 5D Gaia holds the frequency of Love and Unity, this strong love that has been activated on Earth is bringing up a lot of healing for all of Earth's inhabitants. The increasing light that's being brought forward is coming both from the Cosmic higher dimensions as well as within Gaia itself. As above, as below.


This activation has brought forward a great purgatory. That's where most of us are today, we are shedding the layers that are preventing us from being beings of pure Love. We are going through a The Great Awakening. Connecting to Gaia as we go through this ascension process is essential. Because we are not ascending to leave, we are ascending to co-exist with this planet in harmony and love. We are raising our frequency to co-create heaven on Earth.


So if you can connect your roots to this vortex, then as you connect to this bright blue vortex of pure Love, see how your roots also turn into light and that this light spreads from the tips of your roots all the way up to your feet and legs and then flowing up through your entire being, filling you throughout with this healing blue energy, allowing this energy to open up all energetic pathways through your being. Flowing all the way to your Soul Star Chakra, above your head.


Allow this connection to Gaia to be permanent by bringing the light of the blue Divine Earthly energies and the white energy of the Soul Star Chakra together down your being and all the way back to the core of the earth again and to the Gaia Star. Let these energies connect and merge as one throughout your being. Knowing that you can never truly ever be separated from the Divine Love.


Then as you made this connection, if you can strengthen this connection, this channel of light down below your feet all the way down to the core of Gaia. If you can strengthen the width and the strength of this light channel, as if there was a giant channel of light going all the way to the core, as if a great tree trunk made of light. Know that this is your personal connection to Gaia so there is never a need to limit your connection because you are not taking anything from anyone else.


Actually by connecting this deeply to Gaia you are also showing others how they too can create their own personal connection to Gaia. So allow yourself to truly expand and spread your light in all directions from your light channel, throughout Earth in all directions. Remember that for a tree to grow really strong it needs to have very strong roots, the same applies to your light body. It's not really about grounding you to the physical, it's about grounding you in light, it's about becoming a truly integrated light being. "


Excerpt from my book 'Healing Divinity - Awakening The Light Within' that I'm currently editing.


Photo by my dear friend Ron Sapa who painted this beautiful drum after sharing my vision with him.


LOVE, Kristina

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