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Healing Divinity Blog | Satya'Naat

Right before new years eve I was told by spirit that it was time to take my spiritual name as my spoken name. Always when I'm asked by spirit to do one thing or another, I need to feel it through. I wasn't sure if I could or would or wanted to. I was told that my old name Kristina represented so much old identities that I could now let go of.


I received the name Satya'Naat just about 7 years ago in 2013. I remember that day and night very well. I remember being so sad during the day, a sort of sadness that I couldn't break through. I remember posting here on Facebook asking for prayers and for people to send me love which is probably the only time I've ever done so. Later that day I was invited to come to a concert with the Wailers. It was Bob Marley's birthday and they were having a tribute concert in down town Vancouver.


Isaac my friend who invited me I had met just a few days earlier, I was going for an audition as I was doing some part time acting for fun at the time. I was on the bus going down Hastings and the bus stopped abruptly and I fell into this big Rastafarian dude. I apologized quickly and as I was trying to gain my balance again I looked up and met these big brown beautiful kind eyes and as I did I just knew that we knew each other. That we were old old friends. He said hi and I said hi and somehow I don't remember what happened exactly but I was an hour late for my audition and I definitely didn't get the part, but I made a friend. :)


So fast forward to the concert night, I went downtown to meet Isaac and his friends and we met at McDonald's of all places and he was sitting there waiting for me with a woman and a young man. The woman who I unfortunately don't remember the name of anymore but Isaac had met her earlier in the day when she was looking at drums, she had come to Vancouver from Mount Shasta a few days earlier. She said she was called to come. She continues to tell me that my name, my soul name is Satya'Naat. When she told me it was as if every cell in my entire body lit up, it was as if my whole light body responded and I just knew it was true. She also told me that my true element was water but that I had come into this lifetime to learn about the element of fire (I'm a Leo sun).


Which makes so much sense, water has always been my favorite place to be. Since I was very young I couldn't wait for the ice to break in the spring so that I could be in the sea again, or just to spend hours and hours in the bath.We had a drum ceremony a few days later on Kits beach, right by the secret beach for those who know.. and I remember merging with a bald headed eagle and afterwards for weeks I could see a reflection of an eagle above me on the cars as I walked by but when I looked up there was none there.. so much magic, and some very remarkable ceremonies I had with her. One of the first ceremonies where I went into trance and started talking my star language or the language of Sofia came through when she was there. Now looking back I know it was a time of big initiations.


It's taken me 7 years and a whole lot of death and transformation. But I feel happy to be called Satya'Naat now, it feels right. But you can call me Satya for short.


Thank you for reading, so much Love!


Ps. I will be changing my name on all channels from now on. Ds.


Someone asked me how you can be vulnerable yet not fragile and break down in the middle of a work day? How do you allow yourself to be vulnerable but still remain somewhat contained?


Being vulnerable doesn't mean that you allow your emotions to control you. Being vulnerable means allowing yourself to feel what you are feeling and staying present within that. Being truly vulnerable doesn't mean that you go unconscious and become reactive to the world outside of yourself.


Being vulnerable means allowing yourself to feel what you are feeling and coming to a place of self-knowing within that. That also means that sometimes you do allow yourself to be very fragile and allow yourself to express your own needs. But to become aware of our own needs, our true needs, we need to listen within.


When we do our own inner work, we learn to take responsibility for how we feel. Thus we don't put the responsibility of our feelings on someone else's table. Yet we can communicate how the behaviors of others might make us feel and if certain relationships don't change or evolve even if we communicate our needs then we can choose to walk away.


But in the end we always have to go back to ourselves and sit with what we are feeling. We have to allow other people to be yet we have to also be responsible for ourselves. So we can have conversations with someone expressing how their behavior makes us feel yet if they are unable to change their behavior, then we have to take responsibility for our own life and maybe choose to walk away from the situation and the relationship.


Being vulnerable means being accountable for how we feel, it means turning inwards. That also means that we need to face our own ego that may want to put up walls and may be hiding away from doing what our hearts tell us to do because that would mean becoming responsible and accountable for how we feel.. and facing our fears, which tend to in front of our hearts desires.


Does that make sense?


Being vulnerable means more than anything to open up to ourselves and when we do that we can then open up to the world. We have to create safety within ourselves before we open up to the world and that really can only happen once we have become our own self-healers and our own best friends. That means changing how we speak to ourselves, not putting ourselves down etc etc.


Of course this often needs to be done with someone as a therapist, a healer or a good friend that can help us to navigate within our own thoughts and feelings. But in the end our work needs to come inside.


If our internal environment isn't safe then how can we be safe in the world?


Becoming safe inside takes time and a lot of introspection. We have to untangle lifetimes of conditioning and that isn't always so easy. But step by step you can and the first step is to become vulnerable within yourself. What am I really feeling? What am I thinking? Can I take responsibility for both?


When you do take responsibility for your thoughts and feelings you can also change them. Then its not outside of yourself. It's not an external event taking place outside of your control. It's an actual inner event that you can shift through your awareness and your presence within.


When we become aware and present within the events taking place within we can have compassion for ourselves and we can open up to new possibilities and stop becoming unconsciously reactive and defensive. We can become vulnerable with ourselves and when we do, we become empowered creators. As soon as you realize that you can affect your reality by shifting your inner state of being, you can handle anything. You become invincible and then if you sometimes fall down you know its not such a big deal anymore because you know you can also pick yourself up. It all starts and ends within yourself.


So Much Love,

Kristina


As some of you may know, I started working as a healer without any formal training after having a profound awakening during meditation back in 2011. I started because spirit told me it was time. When I started, I started on a donation basis, I didn't really know what I was supposed to do but my faith in my inner guidance allowed me to show up where I needed to. My first clients were very gracious, well most of them.. and some of them remain close friends to me to this day.


The course that I created the Light Body Activation course was created from what I learned in my first years working as a healer. If you were one of my early clients then you probably came to my studio in Kitsilano and I was probably talking a lot during the session. Asking different things to heal.


I believe that the healing work came out as such in the beginning for me to learn *intellectually* what I was doing.


Those of you that have had sessions with me recently know that my work has become completely silent. I talk to you before the session as what you want to work on and where you're at but I don't talk at all during the session, and often after been given permission to do my work from my client I will hang up and won't speak to them in person, but instead will send them a message with a summary of the session and any specific guidance that came through. But also that is often very limited. I feel less and less to share through words (touché as I'm writing right now) but I think it's more and more about the person connecting with themselves, their higher selves through my work or through me opening them from within, so that they can find clarity within again.


I found in the past that people would get stuck on words and on things that I said and it wasn't healing. People got stuck in loops on what was wrong or broken with them, they got stuck on different old stories. Whereas healing really need to be about letting go and allowing space. That can only happen without words and through concentration on what Is.


I do enjoy my work much more as well because I feel that I don't have the same pressure on myself to "perform". I've never been better at what I do and yet my efforts have decreased and instead I allow more. If that makes sense? My faith in God as the ultimate healer and that can only come through if the person that I'm working on is ready for that healing. It requires responsibility. For me to show up for my client but also for me to let go and allow the person to face themselves. Because that is the ultimate requirement for healing and ascension. Presence and responsibility.


My work has gone from doing the work to mostly sitting there and concentrating and praying. My faith in my work is steadily increasing and that also gives my work a whole lot more oumph. I trust what comes up in a session is what needs to come up for that person at the time whereas before I think I often would overdo it because I didn't think we had covered enough ground, which are thoughts that of course came from my ego.


The light does the work on its own if we let it. As I continue to heal myself and to grow and ascend my frequency is constantly shifting and that allows me to go deeper. I've also learned that once I cleared something once then every time after that the clearing will become much easier because I already have the memory in my light body of how to heal that.


I was recently invited to clear an ancestral trauma of the holocaust in an Ayahuasca ceremony. Invited I say because I wasn't forced to do it, but she said here Kristina, you can help this person with this and well even though I was tired and would have been happy to called it a night and gone to bed, I accepted and worked through that energy. It was some of the heaviest energies that I've faced and it was a lot of it. As I returned to my casita I felt broken and the grief and the sadness of having felt that energy was overwhelming. I felt almost punished by Ayahuasca for having to deal with it but Ayahuasca told me that I need to know this energy and that I need to learn how to clear it because it's deeply ingrained in the collective consciousness and that everytime it will get easier and easier until I know it's just energy and I will be able to transform it immediately to light and love again without the trauma of having to feel the profundity of the darkness.


I don't know why I shared that in this text but maybe it's a reminder for all of our own journeys that it gets easier. We pick up tools a long the way and most importantly as we walk this path our faith becomes stronger and as our faith becomes stronger our belief system changes and as our belief system changes our reality shifts as well.


Faith is everything in this. If you don't have it then it's hard, it's very hard and sometimes it takes a lot of praying to find the faith as well. But that's where my work has landed, deeply in faith with God and the plants. I believe and that's everything. :)


I love you.


Kristina

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