The full moon was in my own sun sign Leo and on top of that in the exact degree of that sun sign. Which means that I was extra affected and I can still feel it.
This year began with huge changes, I decided in December last year to move back to Sweden to be closer to my family. Its something that never have been that important to me all the suddenly became very important and now being back I understand why I had to stay away from here for so long. It couldn't have been any other way.
In Vancouver and in BC I could come out as a healer, I could let my freak fly fly. It would have been nearly impossible in Sweden before. Odd thing that is how we can be so conditioned by our surroundings. Then as we shift through, we're all the suddenly not the same anymore yet we are more our selves than we ever were. That's were I am now.
I feel more confident that I ever have and maybe I will come across as overbearing but that's fine. I'm tired of tiptoeing around people. I have a tendency to shake things up where ever I go, from things I say and sometimes my presence is enough. That has always made me hold back. Haven't wanted to be seen. For the risk of being criticized, for being judged. For being too much me. But then I realize it doesn't matter. If I hold back then I keep myself bored forever more. If allow myself to be then I attract more of my own kind and that makes me happy.
Plus on the full moon night my solar plexus pretty much exploded open and I thought my solar plexus was already open. Ha. I realize that I need to do something with all this energy. Holding it in and meditating makes me feel like a boiling volcano so instead I have to channel it into something. This need to express myself, to be me. In whatever form that comes through.
I've always held very high standards to myself. Probably why I am where I am, I am relentless in my own healing. But my own perfectionist standards have held me back. Not allowed me to even start some projects that are boiling inside of me. Because I always felt that I wasn't ready yet. That I always needed more healing. To go even deeper. But I realized that I can keep going deeper and deeper and still share. I don't have to be perfect to be able to share what I know. Or to share my own learning journey. Or to create.
So I want to reinvent Healing Divinity. I'm not going to do any more personal healing sessions and instead I'm going to focus all my time on teaching and creating. To do more of what brings me joy, to help others realize their own inherent healing ability. Because its all within us.
So Much Love!